Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Are You Kidding Me?

In the poetic words of the troubled yet awesome Amy Winehouse...

"What kind of fuckery is this?"

These lyrics struck me as pretty strong and offensive at first, but they have now almost become my mantra. She just puts it out there. And sometimes that's what is truly needed.

On my way to work yesterday, gas was $3.72/gallon. That was on the other side of the street. On my side of the street (the direction I was driving to work) it was $3.95/gallon. I was running late for work and couldn't stop to turn around and get gas. I *knew* that by the time I left work last evening, all stations would be jacked up to $3.95/gallon. And sure enough, that's what happened.

I paid $20 for 5 gallons of gas.

Indeed, what kind of fuckery is this?

In my world of Not Buying It, there are so many things that I'm having trouble wrapping my brain around lately. Who's getting rich from the gas prices? What's up with the cost of rice and flour? Where will it all end? Are we doomed to take the path of the Roman Empire? How will we survive?

For the past month or so I've been quite unsettled. Off kilter. Short of breath. Tired.

As a highly sensitive person (HSP), I suppose I am affected by the magnitude of disaster and tragedy that has befallen our world lately. If we are truly all connected, the collective energy of the planet cannot help but be shaken by the profound nature of so many souls suffering and leaving the earth in a short period of time.

And that's when I need more sleep. And rest. And down time. And covers over my head. And close friends who love and support me. And to nurture myself.

Because, once again, I remind myself that my well-being is up to me. Be it financial, emotional, physical, psychological, or must be an inside job. light of my disgust and anger and frustration and discontent...what am I *doing* or how am I *be-ing* to counteract that?

~listening to Eckart Tolle
~reaching out to friends and mentors
~napping with my cats
~slowing down
~choosing where to spend my energy
~recognizing what I own and what I don't (and letting go)
~moving forward in building my coaching business
~planning fun get-aways that will nurture my spirit and expand my horizons
~spending less
~acquiring less
~planning a garden to provide some of my own food
~continuing to look for ways to save money and live more sustainably
~letting myself be loved

One day at a time. One moment at a time. Deep breathing. Centering. Focusing. Incense burning. Lots of prayer.

Write and tell me how you're surviving in these days of uncertainty.

1 comment:

jmgb said...

i hear you. i hear you. i hear you.
the madness feels near, consuming, and worse, has seemed to infiltrate the sacred spaces of my life.

and the breath between jumping rope, watering flowers, and smelling the approaching heat, i am finding him.

finding god.

like you, it takes deliberate, intentional enjoy, retreat, center, move and wait. it is the dancing of the gray in this world.

keep writing.

because i hear you.

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